After back problems for years I finally got to see a back specialist. I had put all my problems down to sciatica, he asked loads of questions and diagnosed weakness in my left leg. I explained the issues with my leg and lower back; tingling, numbness, aching and most recently some bladder issues. I wasnt concerned he immediatly was. I had an MRI the next day, as I left the lady said I would get results within 4-6 weeks. I thought nothing to work about. My doctor rang late that day, I have a dense mass on my tendon nerve sheath that they at this point are classing as a tumour. He said I need a further urget MRI to assess what kind of tumour. We talked about all sorts of things but the thing that stuck in my mind was "its small so we have got it early which if its cancerous will greatly improve your chances". My chances - My chances. I just cant get that out of my head. I have done some research since (the phone call was friday) and as it turns out most of these tumours turn out to be benign, however on the flip side of that if they are cancerous then the chances he talked about arent great. Between 15-20% are the 5 year survial rates for this kind of cancer. Its also likely to be a secondary cancer, so where else is it? I go from I cant believe this to I am going to die. I just want the MRI but also I am terrfied of having it because then if it is the worst case then it becomes real. I have 3 children, I have just recently met and married the love of my life, I am supposed to be starting a new job in september as a physics teacher. If I have cancer that wont be able to happen, how will we pay the mortage on our dream home. Its been two days of limbo, and it feels like 2 months, I cant sleep and I just feel terrified and emotional.