Hi, my name is Clare and I lost my sister on 30th December 2018, it still feels unreal.  I still think she's here but I know she isn't.  Her death was very sudden and I still can't take it in.

All of our family live in Ireland there was just the two of us in England living with our families when she took poorly.

We didn't see each other as much as we should have considering we lived ten minutes away from each other.  We she was diagnosed I was pregnant and my pregnancy helped us both look forward and be positive but that wasn't to be the case.  I gave birth to a beautiful healthy baby boy on 11th November and she adored him so much. Sadly the following month my sister passed away suddenly (she may have known the end was near but I didn't)

I'm so angry that I never saw her more before and while she was poorly and now I'm so upset, tearful and maybe even depressed as I feel I let her down