Wow where do they get that strength from? 

Admirable!xx

Hello Beatrice,

How are you doing?

do you have your results yet?

xx

Hello Beatrice,

I am so sorry that you are going through the agonising wait, do you know how long after the scan you will have to wait for your results?

I don’t want to patronise you by suggesting things to keep your mind occupied as I know I was awful but do you have a nurse or GP that you can speak to?

I am thinking of you and sending you strength and courage at this frightening time.

xxx

Hi M&I, hope you’re well

im struggling I won’t lie. I was up til 4am last night not being able to sleep

im thinking of calling my gp to see if I have any results from thursdays tests. It was 9am so maybe they Can count that as a day.. I don’t want to be told to wait for my appt or that they can’t tell me over the phone etc 

oh Bea bless you I hope they’re able to give you some kind of idea at the scan! Got everything crossed for you xx

Oh honey :( it’s okay to be down. Have a good cry and let it all out. Good that you’re resting you need to look after yourself and also be strong for your mum. You’ve got so much going on right now 

much love xxx

Hi Beatrice,

I feel for you, I really do.  I recognise that feeling of powerlessness and the days morphing.  It's so familiar. 

It's so utterly awful but I guess it is something that we all just have to surrender to.  Whether we are awaiting diagnosis, in treatment or in remission, there is always that next scan, blood test, biopsy on the horizon, with the (seemingly neverending) fearful wait for results.  It will sound like an impossible task for you right now, but you will find your own way of coping.  We all have to so the anxiety doesn't eat us up.  

I know it sounds like a lad of guff, but a bit of mindfulness (Headspace) helps me through, some time outside walking somewhere beautiful.  Plus sheer bloodymindedness that I'm not going to let this disease take any more of my time away from me; it doesn't deserve it.

Gem xx

I’m sure she was reassuring you that you’re in good hands when she said that, and that it’s best to be checked out. They can’t say anything which is hard but it’s understandable. I hope they give you the results ASAP I can’t imagine the anxiety it brings

the phonecalls would bug the hell out of me I’d end up snapping at them. Do they call withheld or with a number? I always instantly block any number that’s a sales person so they can’t call again

Hi Midgeandivy,  I’m so sorry to hear of your diagnosis and hope things are going okay for you at the moment.  I’ve just been diagnosed with grade 1C ovarian cancer also.  It’s been an emotional rollercoaster and, like you, I’m petrified of what’s to come.  Trying to get myself into a positive mindset and put my big girl pants on!  Fingers firmly crossed for both of us that we come out of this fit, healthy and stronger than ever.  S x