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Mavis40
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i know I have a cheek posting and I’ve cried my eyes out at some of the posts here. Some of you guys are just so brave.  I can’t sleep yet.  I have been worrying myself sick since last week and planning my bloody funeral. I found a small lump last Monday, I went the GP and she referred me to the breast clinic. She didn’t mention cancer but it’s on my mind constantly. Today has been a bad day I’ve cried all day.  I’m trying to keep it together but I can’t.   I rang the breast clinic today and I’m not even on the list it’s been a week and they haven’t referred me yet!  I’m not strong I dunno what to do with myself.   My friend died only three years ago and that’s broken my heart, she had stage 4 cancer.  Ever since that I’ve been worried sick too.    I’m so sorry I just thought I need to write this down.  My hubby has got me a private appointment where we have to pay but the results are on the same day and it’s due next Wednesday.  What can I do til then guys? Can anyone help me? 

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    Hi Mavis40, I think some pretty sound advice on here, but staying calm is not easy. I know, because I've been through this. I was 32 when I got diagnosed with Breast Cancer. 8 yrs on, I've beat it. I know I'm one of the lucky ones. I had a great team around me, both medically and familywise. I won't go into details now of my diagnosis or treatment, but I think positivity and trying to occupy myself with other things helped me through.
    Don't bottle up your fears, talk to people around you. I chose to only share my fears with a few people - but even that helped. Talk, cry and laugh if you need to. There's no shame in having emotions.
    I notice your appointment is tomorrow. I have my fingers crossed for you 

    Lisa x

     

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    Hi Mavis

    Ive been there & I know exactly how you feel.

    2 years ago I found a large lump in my breast and my GP referred me to the breast clinic and the appointment was a 2 week wait.  I was exactly the same as you, crying, panicking and could barely sleep.  

    Finally the day arrived & I was terrified! Cried the minute I walked in.  I had mammogram & then ultrasound which showed a 4cm cyst.  It was drained there & then & I went home so relieved & no further investigation required.

    I’m currently on here as I’ve had my breast screening mammogram 3 weeks ago & have got recalled.  I’ve been told its the other breast that something has shown up.  I’m trying hard not to panic although I have my moments.  I keep telling myself 3 out of 4 are OK.

    My appointment is tomorrow.

    I’m sure you will be fine xxxxx

     

     

     

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    Hi Chrissie

    So relieved to read this!

    I have been recalled from my recent mammogram & have been so scared as to why?  When I phoned they said something had shown up in my right breast. 

    I cant feel any lumps at all so I am concerned what it could be.

    My appointment is tomorrow so fingers crossed all will be OK.

    x

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