Scared scared scared

i know I have a cheek posting and I’ve cried my eyes out at some of the posts here. Some of you guys are just so brave.  I can’t sleep yet.  I have been worrying myself sick since last week and planning my bloody funeral. I found a small lump last Monday, I went the GP and she referred me to the breast clinic. She didn’t mention cancer but it’s on my mind constantly. Today has been a bad day I’ve cried all day.  I’m trying to keep it together but I can’t.   I rang the breast clinic today and I’m not even on the list it’s been a week and they haven’t referred me yet!  I’m not strong I dunno what to do with myself.   My friend died only three years ago and that’s broken my heart, she had stage 4 cancer.  Ever since that I’ve been worried sick too.    I’m so sorry I just thought I need to write this down.  My hubby has got me a private appointment where we have to pay but the results are on the same day and it’s due next Wednesday.  What can I do til then guys? Can anyone help me? 

  • Hey there,

    My name is Nicole, im 17 and quick summary of why I am on here: My father has stage 4 liver and pelvic cancer- which was originally bowel cancer.

    My advice:

    Stay calm, because theres always a million conclusions to come to. I understand it must be frightening for you, but try to stay as positive as you can and remember- the word cancer is big, but whilst there are some who unfortunately lose their battle, so so so many have lived on strong and still do to this day.

    Try keeping occupied with things you enjoy and make sure you always have someone to talk to. Try not to google things and frighten yourself unnecessarily. Just remember you will be in good hands and that jumping to conclusions is something that, we all do, but also something we should try not to do.

    I wish you all the luck and hope everything goes ok,

    Best wishes,

    Nicole x

  • Hi mavis,. Have you heard of a cyst,. My wife's been in three times every time it was a cyst, there a lot more common than C stop thinking the worst think cyst, best wishes.

    Billy 

  • hi Nicole.  Thank you for your reply.   I am so sorry about your father I hope that the treatment will go well for him.  I am sending hugs to you, so brave.  

     

    Billy - thank you.  Yes that’s what the doctor said but then because she referred me I have been scared out of my brains. That is what I’m praying for.

     

    when I read on here makes me realise all the normal moaning and rubbish I do, I have bloody nothing no moan about and if I’m lucky to get a diagnosis of a cyst I’m never taking stuff for granted again. 

  • Hi there ..

    Can't add much to the good advice others have said .. just to say my first four call backs from mamorgrams were all clear... I just had lumpy boobs .. and keep thinking 8.5 out of 10 lumps are benign..  

    So fingers crossed .. Chrissie xx  

  • thanks Chris.  I got through to the docs and she had given me the details of the wrong breast clinic.

    i rung the correct one and I’m on the list and it’s an 8 WEEK WAIT!

     

    i honestly think I would be in a nut house waiting that long.

  • Hi mavis find something to do while waiting, lots of houses get done up while people are waiting you'd be surprised how many, if you're house is OK there's always the garden.. Best wishes. 

    Billy 

  • Hi there I had many lumps in my breast first lump I found a few years ago my doctor wasn’t concerned so I waited 8 weeks for appointment had he it all checked and it was normal, then back in February this year I found another lump which my doctor sent me as urgent this time as she was a very young doctor and had scans it was normal  ,keep yourself busy I know it’s hard 

  • Hi Mavis - sorry you are so scared. I know what that's like & unless you've been there it's hard to understand. Almost 3 weeks ago my GP referred me for urgent tests for bowel/lung cancer. I was absolutely terrified & certain I was going to die. All tests so far have come back clear - 1 to go but the comsultant isn't worried - just being cautious I think. I tell you this to show all is not 'doom & gloom'. My GP says 9 out of 10 people referred for cancer tests come back clear. Those are really good odds aren't they & no reason why they shouldn't apply to you. :)

    Everyone so far has said to keep busy & it's very good advice even tho' it's not easy to do. Do try tho'. It's sooooooo much better than sitting & focusing on negative thoughts. As you've already found there's lots of support here as & when you need it. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you of course. x

  • Thanks Purrfect. I’m so glad that all was ok with you. 43reg so glad for you too. Thanks to all taken the time to answer my crazy posts.
  • also thanks billy.

     

    i do have my bedroom to do up but it’s on the back burner now as I’m using the money to go private and see somebody next week about the lump.

    I have an appointment next Wednesday at 2pm.

    otherwise an 8 week wait.