Scared

Hi all,

I am new to this, so not sure what to say. I received the news that after a chest x-ray for another medical problem I have, a shadow has been found on the x-ray. I am now wiring to have a CT scan next week. I am terrified I have cancer, although I know there could be other reasons for the shadow. But I have built it up and and now convinvpced that is it. I am in my early 40s and a non-smoker, I haven’t told any of my family or friends about the letter. I am too scared to verbalise my worries, I keep crying on my own. I have also hurt my back this week, so was feeling pretty low before I got this letter. I am unsure how I am going to get through the next week or more. Any support or anyone been in a similar position with advice would be greatly appreciated. 

  • Hi flora hopefully others will soon join you from the forum to talk there's [@Sandra123]‍ or [@Chriss]‍ ‍ they are good listeners, remember its early days yet, best wishes.

    Billy 

  • Hi flora

    of course you are scared it’s a bit of a scary time and the worst bit is the waiting because during that time your mind is tail chasing.

    if you have read other posts on here you will notice a lot of the advice on here is repeated so much so they are almost mantras. This does not detract from the fact they are true.

    advice such as try to keep busy... if u are busy u are less likely to dwell.

    It’s nothing till it is... many have test that turn out to be nothing but you had to go through the process to find this out.

    live in the day... in other words stop the what ifs, could haves, should haves.... these thoughts are negative and will take your mind to dark places.

    hold loved ones and family close... not because you are thinking you have cancer but because you should have always been doing this. 

    Talk with your family if the shoe was on the other foot you would want to know. They are your support you need them.

    I hope you have the best outcome possible. Hugs sent your way x

  • Hi there flora ..

    And welcome ... not much l can add to our lovely sandra123 ... she's crossed all the bases ... and everyone of those things are real .. they will get you through ... and no amount of panic will change the outcome .. so worry , that's normal .. but no more panicking... 

    And don't keep it all in ..yes they may be upset ... but you need to share and have someone with you on appointments ...  sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie x

  • Thank you all for your words of support. I am going to try to keep busy and not worry too much. The feelings of worry wash over me every now and then, other times I am fine. I suppose that is the norm when faced with the unknown. Many thanks again.