Hi NatMummy,

I can understand why you're concerned about your symptoms. I know it's impossible not to be concerned over what you're experiencing so I won't tell you not worry as that won't be a lot of help to you. 

I can only tell you about my own experience for some perspective. In my situation, I found a huge lump but was convinced it was nothing serious. I'd decided it was a cyst, so it was a big shock to me to discover it was actually breast cancer.

The point here is that you can never tell what something will be until it's properly checked out. I drove myself crazy assuming I was facing the worst case scenario, but even my massive lump was completely treatable. 

Having faced the big C and being able to look back, I have to say it was one of the best things to ever happened to me. Tough in part, yes. But it changed my life for the better, too. 

While no one here can tell you what the outcome will be of your appointment tomorrow, what you can do is focus on your self-care right now. Avoid trying to diagnose yourself (it just makes things worse) and lead on your support network instead. Talk, cry, eat cake, go and lie in the sunshine, play with your son - do whatever you need to do to make yourself feel better today and tomorrow.

Whatever happens next - whether you can get the all clear or need further treatment - know that you are surrounded by support and that having an answer is a lot easier than battling the unknown.

I hope that helps a little,

Vicki - threelittlewords.co.uk

Thank you so much for your reply, made well up lol! I'm abit of a wreck trying to keep calm infront of the kids. Can't wait for tomorrow to come. 

I will stop hanging around on Google and just focus on tomorrow.

Xxx

It's ok to not be ok, but definitely find as many distracting activities as possible! Good luck tomorrow and take care of yourself until then x

Update

I saw the consultant last night who said his first impression was that it is a benign mass but that he need to the triple check to be absolutely sure.  I have a mammogram and ultrasound booked for tomorrow morning so not much longer to wait thankfully, he will also do a biopsy if needed but won't know that until tomorrow.

I feel calmer but still have a niggle that how can he possibly know it's benign from feeling it?

Xx

I’m pleased to hear that the feedback was positive but understand your niggle. 

I found a lump Tuesday morning and have appointment next Tuesday - NHS. 

It’s a three hour appointment so reading up on what to expect. 

I hope tomorrow goes well and that you are keeping busy tonight. When I’ve got time to surf the net my mind wanders! 

This is all great news NatMummy! I'm sure already that this is 100% better than what you were expecting your results to be.

At this point, even if they do find some small changes to your lymph node that they aren't happy with, you'll know it's been caught really, really early and it'll make any treatment they recommend so much easier and quicker. They clearly aren't panicking otherwise they wouldn't be waiting 6 weeks. 

And you could just as easily be nothing going on at all that you need to concern yourself with.

This is a big win - breathe, relax and celebrate the positive news.

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Hi NatMummy,

This all sounds very reassuring. Your consultant obviously wants to keep an eye on you, in case there are any changes. Unfortunately, there are no guarantees that you won't find something untoward, but, even if you do, you will catch it early enough to do something about it.

Keep in touch and let us know how you get on.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx