Heartbroken ....again

Hi, my amazing  mum is almost 75 and only diagnosed around Mother’s Day - it’s all happened so fast - I have a photo of her at our eldest sons 21st in december looking helathy - then shoulder pain, suspected gastritus which GP was insistent about and just kept sending her off with Gaviscon..the CT scan (at familys request) then WALLOP - stage 4 lung cancer which has spread to the liver & bones..my world has fallen apart I can’t begin to tell you we live next door to her & we are slowly watching her deteriorate- actually it’s not slowly as every day she seems frailer  and now not really eating much this  week -we don’t  know how long she has as she doesn’t want to be told So we taking each day. as it comes and treasure her as best as wecan. My dad died of cancer in 2017 & we are only just  comimg to terms with that as that was completely out of the blue too - the worst part is my mother in law has also just died from cancer she fought fir 7 years - she was so strong & really put up s good fight but sadly C won so in her final days in the hospice last month we then had my mum just across the road in the hospital having herlungs drained - WHAT ARE THE ODDS ON BOTH OUR MUMS WITH CANCER AT THE SAME TIME  - it’s like I’m in a bad nightmare day after day & our 10 year old son has now lost two grandparents in the last year & a half with a third one dangerously ill - I’m so worried fir him & tried to reassure him that me and his dad are fine & it’s just bloody *** bad luck ( I did even say that & explained that on this occasion swearing is necessary ️) it’s just horrible times & all feels quite bleak, my husband is emotionally strong & doesn’t seem to have started grieving for his dear mum yet as I think he’s being strong for me , which makes me sad as I don’t want what’s happen to my mum to over shadow his mums passing...feel so bloddy angry, sad, anxious and herat broken its almost too much to deal with..and we are managing to care for our 10 year old and help with my mums care (my sster and step dad are primary carers and doig amazing job) and keep our business going......feel exhausted...

  • Hi bee it sounds if you are managing OK, so sorry for All your family losses I know these things can really be a shock, glad you have family around helping, your husband might be like me he is hert but let's it out slowly and in private,. Again very sorry for all your worries,. 

    Billy 

  • hi billy, thank you very much for the kind words yes it’s all horrible stuff all at once - life can be cruel sometimes- but we are lucky as you say to have loving family around my mum who all want to care for her so we will continue to prop ea h other up - it’s nice to have a forum like this too & meet people who understand- my husband is very much like that - he’s very internal & rather not talk about it - then one day it just pours out - but he is private like you as a lot of men are & I just hope he’s not holding all his pain in though as that’s not healthy 

    best wishes to you & thanks for taking the trouble to reply ️