Hi 

I have been reading posts on here since Mum was diagnosed with stage 3c ovarian cancer in July 2018, but this is the first time I’ve posted as I never know what to say. 

Sadly I lost Mum before Christmas and I’m absolutely devastated.  It wasn’t straight forward, I fought with many different health and medical professionals to try and help her. She suffered until her last breath, still just wanting to get back on her feet to get to work. 

She never complained, never cried, just got on with it ... “you’ll die if you worry and you’ll die if you don’t” she always said to me. 

She was my best friend, we bitched together, laughed together, went our spa days and holidays... I miss her so much. It just doesn’t seem real that she’s gone. 

Christmas was the worst, then my birthday 2 weeks later and now Mother’s Day. We spent every Mother’s Day together and last year I’d got us a makeover and photoshoot that sadly we never got to do. I never in a million years thought it would be our last one together. I just feel so empty. I’m already avoiding social media in anticipation of the Mum & daughter pics and posts, I’m dreading Sunday so much, I know many of us are in the same position. 

I cry a lot reading other posts on here and feel each and every one of your sorrows, for those going through it and who have lost loved ones. 

Sorry for the rant, I feel so selfish posting this knowing there are so many others going through it but I don’t talk to anyone else about it and if people ask i say I’m fine. 

Thanks for *listening* you have all helped me through recent months more than you’ll ever know xxxxx