Waiting for a diagnosis

Hi I’m new on here, this is not something I’m used to doing, but here goes. My partner was diagnosed with chronic myeloid leukaemia (cml) 4years ago and has been responding well to treatment. Everything was great until today. The doctors have now found a mass in his stomach. We won’t know the outcome until tomorrow, hopefully it won’t be cancer but I don’t know if I’m strong enough to go through this again. I feel that every time things are going well,I get knocked back down again I have kept it together for so long for my partner and the children and it scares me to think that if does turn out to be worse case senario that I won’t be strong enough to do it all again. Can someone please help?

  • Hi there poppy ...

    I know this must be heartbraking for you at the moment... but just imagine how your hubby feels .. and he doesn't have a choice ... we all know once we have cancer, it just sits on our shoulders waiting .... 

    And trust me, many people think they know how hard it is .. but untill it's you with cancer, then the full scary nightmare becomes even more clearer ... you did this once ... you can do it again .. or leave him to face a second round alone ... 

    Yes it's not fare ... yes it'll be really hard going ... but that's what our vows are ... better or worse ... it probly comes down to how much you love him .. because if it were someone I loved , I'd get those cancer boxing gloves back on and help them no mater what ...

    But it's really down to you ... only you can decide what to do ... whichever you pick will be a hard road ahead ...  Chrissie x