So sad

My Mum passed away 4 weeks ago Thursday after being diagnosed with Terminal brain tumour in August last year. She was the bravest of souls never cried or felt pity for herself whilst her family were devastated by the news. We thought we had a year we got five months and I am just lost without her. I can’t grieve though as I am supporting for Dad who has lost his wife and soul mate of 57 years. His whole world is consumed with pain and grief, that I have to hide mine to be strong for him. My Dad is also battling cancer and currently undergoing 7 arduous weeks of Radiotherapy. It’s a tough time and I feel lost although o have the support of and amazing husband and wondefuL friends my first thought is very morning I need to call my Mum and tell her what’s been happening! She was my best friend and my rock but she’s gone and I am desperately sad and lost without her. I just needed to share this today to get it off my chest as the pain tonight is so overwhelming 

  • Hi

    So sorry I missed your post and about the loss of your mum. It is one of the hardest things I think to lose your mum. My mum passed away thirty years ago and I still miss her but the pain and sadness is no longer there just lasting memories of the good times. Cancer is a very cruel disease and no one is exempt from its cruelty. It is great that you are there to support your dad but you must allow yourself to grieve too. I lost my brother sixteen months ago and was unable to grieve because my husband was ill in hospital and six months later I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer. I think only now have I allowed myself the time to reflect and remember and it is so much harder. Hopefully you and your dad can find a way to grieve together and forge a path forward. 

    I’m sending a virtual squeeze from my hand to your. 

    Sundial