Hello, I am hoping I get an appointment through this week, everyday the postman comes I almost rugby tackle him! ( I think he is scared of me now) it's funny really....I want my appointment to come through but I know when it does my heart will sink! ( can't win) 

I work as a warden for a residential home for the elderly, they keep me uber busy, so thankfully it helps take my mind off my own health issues.

Its completely normal to have these ups and downs...don't be too hard on yourself....this forum has been my god send...I think it will be your too xxxx

Hi

Heheh- that would be fun to see the postmans face! My husband is a postman so I will be getting him to check as soon as he goes in work to see if my letter has arrived! 

To be honest I feel a bit manic today, have just spent the last 20 minutes crying my eyes out thinking the worse- not so much worried about me but what I would miss out on regarding my son. I don't think I can handle the waiting, I phoned my doctors to check she did the referral on Friday (she had ) so I'm thinking- 'where's my letter?' Which is crazy I guess.

please let me know how you go on and thank you for replying. It really helps

Clare xxxx

From seeing my gp to the getting the referral it took exactly 2 weeks....so it was spot on. The clinic was a really slick operation, very thorough indeed....I had the triple assessment which is a mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy....I was pleased with this as I could see they were leaving no stone unturned.

I can be a complete drama queen, and even imagined my funeral and if many people would turn up!!?? ( bet that beats your imagination) 

Tears are good....better out than in ...

Lol, you got a heads up with hubby being a postman, does he deliver your post? 

Chin up....chest out....soldier on girlie xxx

Hi Pumkin,

The dermatologist was pretty certain that my lesion is cancerous. It is a Lentigo Maligna Melanoma, or, if I'm very lucky a Lentigo Maligna (a pre-cancerous lesion). Thery won't know for sure until they get in there.

She gave me 2 options. The first was to have a biopsy there and then, but this would leave additional scarring. The other option was to be referred to Plastic Surgery. She said that they will be certain that it has to come out too, so may take it out without doing a biopsy and, send the tissue that will be removed to pathology.

It is situated just under my eye, where it connects to the upper cheek and, this will pose problems, as it is so close to the eye, that they may not be able to take a large enough margin. I am also likely to need skin grafting after the procedure - Cannot say that I am looking forward to this on my face, but I guess that there is Hobson's choice. She said that I should get an appointment in a couple of weeks. This wretched disease never gives up does it?

Do I take it that there is still no sign of your appointment? It can't be long now. Don't worry about crying. this is all part of the stress you are under. A good bubble is a great stress reliever. Your emotions will be all over the place until you get your diagnosis and are either discharged or started on treatment.

Thinking of you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hi Marlyn,

Waiting for an appointment for pathology results is always scary, as we all tend to think the worst.

Here's hoping that, because you only had a lumpectomy, there is nothing too worrying to report.

One thing's for certain - you'll be a much stronger person when you get this all behind you.

Kind regards,

jolamine xx

Hello jolamine,

well, as if you don't already have enough on your plate! You could really do without this  clogging up your load.....

I hope and pray it gets sorted soon....you need a break xxx

Our posts just crossed at the same time! Yes, must admit I didn't realise how strong I was until I was diagnosed..strange isn't it.....and by eck, you're a strong lass xxx

HI Marlyn,

I have had to be strong. They say that life doesn't throw any more at you, than you can cope with it - I sometimes wonder!

Jolamine xx

Hi Marlyn 

just wondring if your letter from the scared postman has arrived? 

Ive thrown myself into focusing on my little two year old today which I think has helped!

please let me know how go on xxx

clare xxx

Hi jolamine

wow, I don’t think I can even say anything that can make you feel ok? Maybe just at least you know there’s loads of people for you on here.

when do you find out? 

Warm regards 

clare xxxx