Serendipity

I am a retired nurse director and lastly a Univeristy lecturer teaching ODPs and nurses.I retired at 55 some years after loosing my husband to bowel cancer nearly 10yrs ago now. I know im fortunate that I was able to have retired. I am also fortunate Ive met a lovely man who is also widowed we live together. I have been pursuing my passion of horses which is a lifestyle and can take over your life. I learnt to ride later in life but love my horse Umbrio who is 7 and before him Guapo who I sold earlier this year. So with one horse I am able to keep him in livery. 

In August I was sent a routine  bowel cancer screen as I was 60. I was called into see bowel cancer nurse. Due to my past surgical history I asked for a CT Colonography which is a special imaging of bowel rather than a colonoscopy. I was called in to see consultant, so my bowel was clear but imaging by accident had shown the  bottom portion of my lungs, and on my left lung a lesion. Bit of a shock. Long story short and CT’ s of Bowel, Chest and head and a three demensional body  PET scan, and lung biopsy. So Adenocarcinoma cancer of the lung was  diagnosed.  I’ve never smoked and kind of fed up with the question or may I say undertone or assumtion that Im a smoker!  I would go further and say ‘anybody  can get any cancer its not exclusive or indiscriminate’, although as we all know risks can be elevated its said with certain life choices.  So healthy living is a bit of a myth it seemed. I have always spun 2-3 times a week at the gym, ride my horse at least 5-times each week actively play with my granddaughter. I consider myself reasonably fit I eat healthily and don’t drink. On the 1st of October I had a left lower lung lobectomy, so a week today it was carried out as an open approach for better access. I have been writing a journal and my walking regime which I started 4days post operation. I think because I was healthy before surgery this has helped, albeit that its still been very painful. My surgeon is of the approach ‘you need to walk’ so that is exactly what I am doing. I am back to see my consultant on the 16th and he will have the results of the pathology by then. This cancer was caught early by as he calls it “serendipity” with no other hot spots or node involvement. I’m a positive person and will deal with whatever presents I know, but it is still difficult at times especially when you had no prior symptoms. 

I plan to go and see my horse Sunday week so it will be two weeks since I saw him, I am confident he is being well looked after though. 

 

 

 

  • Welcome to Cancer Chat, Guapo.

    Thanks for sharing your story with us, it sounds like you have been through a lot and I'm glad that you're able to keep a positive attitude in life in spite of the challenges you face.

    Also, I'm glad to hear you keep busy with other interests such as your passion for horses (they are gorgeous and inteligent creatures, are they not?) and have found a lovely partner to share them with.

    We do have some members who have gone through a similar experience and I hope to see some of them popping here to share their stories with you as chatting to those who can relate to what we're going through does seem to ease a bit of the burden.

    Wishing you the very best,

    Renata, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Thank you Renata my name is Denise my first horse was Guapo . So yes was striving forward and today bam , I know I’m lucky but today I was told I have to have a round of chemo and soon so waiting to hear from the oncologist. My tumour was N1 stage 2 and whilst they are confident all tumour was excised adjuvant therapies are advised. I was doing so well and really motivated I alway am but this has hit me like a sledge hammer.  I am struggling to get past all  the negative aspects of chemo from knowledge and have felt my positivity drain away. I terrified know and I know its from when  I looked after my husband with cancer at home 9yrs ago which doesn’t help. I’m trying pick myself up but so upset and angry I’ve surprised myself with these emotions,.What keeps going around my head is the hair loss and the fact it will be be another 5 mths until  am even able to think about riding, or playing with my 7mth old grand daughter....self pity is something Ive never experience....

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    Hi Denise,

    I am so sorry to hear about this discovery that has turned your life upside down.  You are in the early stages of your journey still and it will become easier to cope with as time passes. I am so sorry to hear about your husband and offer my sincere condolences.

    You are in the position of having too much medical knowledge, which doesn't help in this situation.The emotions you describe are all perfectly natural. I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer in the past 8 years. I lost my mum to metastases in liver, lungs, brain and bone 21 years ago. I am normally a pretty self-sufficient person who runs my own business and,  I could not believe how angry I felt at diagnosis. One thing I will say is that treatment has improved dramatically since my mum had cancer. The surgery, treatment and aftercare that I have received in the last 8 years bear no comparison whatsoever to what she endured. I am sure that you will find this too.

    Try not to upset yourself by what you cannot do in the coming months, concentrate on what you can do. The negative aspects of chemo do not affect everyone, so get on with it as a means to an end and your positivity will gradually return.

    I am glad to hear that Umbrio is being well looked after in livery, but I doubt that you will feel like riding for a while.

    I hope that you are getting good support from your partner and family.

    It seems so unfair to be having all this trouble when you have never smoked and have lead a healthy lifestyle, but there are many on here in a similar position..

    I shall be thinking of you on 16th and hope that the patholofy results are not too untoward.

    Please stay in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx