I'm just 5 days away from 1st chemo. I've got Adv Prostate, Gleason 8, aggressive. It's only today, after 3 months of being strong that I realise I think it's uncruable. I feel so isolated and alone. The duvet is my salvation
Hi John. Welcome to the forum where we all understand your fears and have either finished treatment or just started. Thoughts of chemo scare us all but many on this forum have coped spend idly and realised the thought of it is scarier than the actual chemo. I'm not sure what you mean when you say you think it's incurable, have you been told this? My husbands is incurable but after chemo and radiotherapy it's shrunk by 60% so we're 18 months down the line from being told and still fighting it. Your mind goes into a black whirl of what ifs, we cope by living each day fully and enjoying family and friends. Are you all alone or is that how you feel? Be honest with people and ask for help, there's a lot of kindness in the world and people like to be of help. There are cancer groups in most areas, speak to your Mc Millan nurses they can help. Ring nurses on this forum for help and being pointed in the right direction. Don't despair John, we're here to help. Keep posting and someone will always reply. I hope this helps a little bit. Regards, Carol
I am so sorry about your diagnosis, it’s a very scary time. I’m not familiar with your type of cancer but I do know people living with stage 4 cancer and living well, I do hope that is the case for you.
I understand how you feel about treatment looming, I am in the same position as starting chemo on Tuesday for stomach cancer, I’ve been able to mostly put it to one side for the past few weeks but now it’s here I feel in a funny old place. There’s been tears and sadness followed by bring this *** on attitude. Be kind to yourself, however we feel or whatever we need to do to get through this is allowed.
