Hi wolvesgal

I read your post and felt the need to sign up and message you.

My dad was diagnosed 3 weeks ago with cancer of the esophegues which has spread to the liver. My dad had no symptoms apart from a pain on his side which got so severe we had to call an ambulance. Never in a million years were we expecting this news. 

Since Dads diagnosis he has been in and out of Hospital. He's back home now but has spent the last 3 days in bed, hardly eating and drinking, he's extremely sick and nausea. It's heartbreaking to watch him go from someone so strong to someone so frail, thin and weak. When I ask how he feels he tells me it's as if his body has been badly beaten up. 

I have cried every day since his diagnosis. My dad lives alone, I spend my days at my Dads looking after him and my sister stays of an evening. I have a 13 week old baby so I'm extremely struggling with this news and find myself questioning a lot of things...why would God give me this life changing news after giving me my beautiful baby...the things that go through your head are crazy. 

Dad was due to start palliative chemo 10/7 (the nurses gave him 12 months with chemo, 3 months if no treatment) however the Macmillan nurse and Oncologist have today advised us Dad is too unwell to start treatment, right now I don't know where the next path leads us. 

Anyhow, I just wanted to let you know I understand what you're feeling and experiencing.

Sending you well wishes.