Choosing to stay positive is hard...

Recently diagnosed with stage 1 malignant melanoma and am currently recovering from a wide local excision just below my knee. I know I should be positive as this may be the only treatment I need and it may be a one off but I can’t stop thinking that this is just the beginning. It isn’t helping that 3 weeks post surgery I am still in pain and can’t mobilise very well. My husband Implies that I should ‘just get over it’ and I’m fully aware there are countless people with much worse prognoses than mine but I still feel somewhat sorry for myself. After a short wallow I’m sure I’ll pull myself back together. In the meantime I’m hoping that by sharing my feelings and reading the stories of others on this forum, I will become a happier healthier person and perhaps even provide some comfort to others too. 

  • Bless you, it's not easy being positive when you're in pain and restricted in the things you do. Saps your energy apart from anything else.

    I've found mindfullness useful - have a google if it sounds like something you'd be interested in. It's about being "in the moment" rather than thinking ahead, or back, too much. Accepting how things are at this moment in time. Takes a bit of practice, like many worthwhile things.

    Writing things down can also be helpful, it's healthy to get things off your chest, I say that, actually I'm not good at telling people how I feel. I'm not sure if it's a trust issue or what. So having somewhere online to express things in an anonymous way is great.

    It's early days, you'll find a way of adjusting soon, I'm sure.

    Regards, gamechanger

  • Thank you so much for responding; it’s such a comfort to know that there are supportive people like yourself in this world when in need. I wasn’t sure I’d get any response when I reached out.

    I’ll definitely look up mindfulness today. I’ve heard it being mentioned but never really paid any attention before. I’m really missing the escape I get from running and the serenity after yoga so maybe this can give me a new focus.

    I certainly need to think about something other than the melanoma. Today I’m having the stitches removed...fingers crossed it’s all healing well.

    Thanks again for your kind words xAx

  • Give yourself time. You've had a brush with death in the shape of cancer. Even a cancer scare which ends in a non-cancer diagnosis can knock someone for six! 

    No-one should be expected to be positive all the time :-)

  • Thanks for your reassurance. Your story is so much more complex than mine and it’s an inspiration you’ve stayed so positive xAx

  • Hi Lillie, Being told you have melanoma is life changing and frightening, it doesn’t matter what stage it is it’s melanoma just the same. Tell your husband to get real it’s not something you can just get over! I’m sorry your in pain, xx