Hi there and welcome ....  I'm so so sorry ... and I'm lost for words .. life and cancer can be so crule, but you've had far more then your fare share ... and know this is a great place to chat / vent or ask questions ...  l just wish l could say something to help .... but I can send you a big hug ... and thinking of you, and your little ones ...  sending caring thoughts to you. .. chrisie

Hello Jalola.  If someone told us how cruel and unfair life could be I don't think we would believe it - until it happens.  You have certainly come to the right place to talk about your fears and feelings; many people here will understand.  I don't have much experience with leukaemia (have not had any cancer myself but have helped care for too many family, friends and neighbours who have) and had to look up about the Philadelphia chromosone of which I had never heard.  I understand it stems from a genetic abnormality but don't know if there has been any previous occurences among your family.  I am not going to pretend to understand a great deal of what I was reading but got the general idea.

Is another family member caring for your young sons (you mentioned missing them).  I hope you do have help and support available to you because now is the time when you certainly need it.  Please keep posting here to say how you are coping and what is happening with your treatment.  Annie