Hi there and welcome ... 

Just do what your heart and gut instinct tells you ... l know normality as much as poss helped me .. it's normal to feel numb ... or angry.. or sad ... or anything else we feel ... it's about doing all those things in balance ... so you give in to those feelings and admit it's o.k to feel like that ... but there's a time to be strong enough to carry on with normal things and not feel guilty ... and to know we all make mistakes , it's part of being human .. if we didn't get things wrong we'd never learn those lessons in life ...

Just remember, he's here now, things have come a long way ... there's plenty on here defying the odds ... so how I'm coping is living in the day ... pack as many memories as I can into the day ... find something to make me smile each day .. being honest about feelings .. listening to each others fears ... admitting it's scary ... hugs ... and laughter ... everything helps but laughter sees me through ... 

So hold on tightly on this cancer rollercoaster of ours ... and when you have a low day, look around and there we all are with him ... holding each other up ... so sending you a big hug ...Chrissie