Hello Angel 1975; you are very welcome to come here and we respond because we all want to help each other so you are in the right place.  Well done you for being so positive and coping with your medical problems.

Yes, you should ask for pain relief.  I don't know the nature of your problems with your GP's surgery but if it becomes a problem then ring the hospital where you were treated and ask them to sort it out for you.  You cannot do anything much while you are suffering.

So good that you have beaten cancer for the fourth time - I so much hope your health in this regard continues well.  You should not feel like a cheat; I am sorry that you have a sick family member also suffering from cancer but the fact of your outcomes  being successful could not alter the diagnosis of your relative and I do hope his or her health improves.

You are not ranting at all by the way.  Your post is very clear and succinct.  Your first priority is to get your pain under control.  Then you can hopefully talk to whoever is helping you with your other problems and talk about why you feel afraid.  And perhaps ask your family - once you are feeling better - what they would like you to do.  If nothing else just being there with them might help.  Best wishes.  Annie

Thankyou Annie.  That has helped a lot and put my mind at ease.  My Nana was called Annie, made me think of her and what she would say, and it was pretty much close to what you did say. 

My boyfriend is staying with me ATM helping with my day to day living, he is going to call tomorrow and sort it out.  Last.night was horrific for pain and nausea.  I was so scared I had contracted an infection. Today it's just pain so I feel that is a bonus.

I'm so thankful for the help you have given.  It means a lot.