Hello, Here's hoping that the Day has been kind to you All!

Cancer my enemy since 2014, Abnormal adrenal gland symptom, Removed all is good yes?. No Stage IV Dx Cancer unknown Primary ok no problem i can deal with that, Fast forward to 2017 did Chemo ,.Radio etc but ok not too bad , Feb 2017 removed my left Kidney and in Intensive care not well at all, Mr Smith my Kidney Cancer Specialist informed me in May this year a one in three chance that the pipe from my Kidney to Bladder could be infected but feeling fine back at the Gym etc lifes good, I'm a Surviveyor..Seemingly not ...Bloods and scans in July all negative ..bladder cancer but they're not remotely concerned with this but three new tumors on my lungs one pretty large near my heart ..Meeting arranged so so, sorry I was told maybe a clinical trial i asked? Maybe i .was told but now since the removal of the kidney a little dubious, No trial simply End of life situation ....What do you do? ...Nothing you get on with things as best you can, Four weeks ago I had flu and found i was not walking straight infected eardrums surely ....My Onc ordered a brain scan ...Abnormal so i went to make my cast for Radiotherapy.Last week to even type this has taken me ages ,I have no feeling in my right arm ...I have trouble connecting my hands and arm ( Right Arm) eating, writing etc ...One thing i do not want to know is " How Long " I have no intention watching the Calendar for whatever time i have left, .,..Looking back and feeling how i'm feeling today .i sincerely wished it had been over in Feb but we continue to fight.

  • So sorry very sad for you and your family 

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    Hi Pudds,

    Welcome to the forum. My, you have been through the wars, haven’t you? I must admire your positivity even still. I agree with you that it would be kinder to let some of us go in the earlier stages, rather than putting us through agony and misery to live what is not even a half-life, in the latter stages. I have lost many relatives and friends to cancer, including my own mum. I myself have had 2 bouts 7 and 6 years ago respectively. Isn’t it strange that we would put animals to sleep under such circumstances, yet we keep humans alive suffering to the bitter end?

    What can you do, in an end of life situation? As you rightly say, just accept it and get on with it – If only it were that easy! I know how difficult it is to put pen to paper about things like this, especially when your arms don’t do what you want them to do. You are one very courageous lady and I hope that you get through your latest round of radiotherapy without too many complications.

    Please keep in touch when you can and let us know how you are getting on. We are always here for you whenever you want to talk.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx