Hello my husband was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer with stage iv it was a horrible shock to us all and we went into a tailspin things are slightly calmer but everyday something new comes up and it's hard emotionally to stay focused and not collapse in a heap. I love my husband so much and I feel for him so much I'm finding it hard to find time to spend with him and enjoy quality time when he's off chemo I miss the times when it was just us and our kids not having to spend each day with loads of people. I sound selfish I know I'm grateful to everybody for their help and support but maybe I'm just harking back to our old life just feel so lost. Normally I'm upbeat but in the small hrs I sometimes get up and just cry because I don't anyone to see especially not my husband or kids. stay strong if you are going through anything like this.
