Hi there Lyn .... sorry to hear your news ... my mum went suddenly with a heart attach... I had no chance to say good bye or I love you one more time .. or hold her hand ... I just wanted one extra day ... you have that chance to make every day count , be it long or short .. leave nothing unsaid , walk this journey hand in hand together... these memories will stay in your heart forever .. we often hear the word rollercoaster to say what this journey is like and it’s so true ... ups and downs .. every emotion you can imagine and more ... it’s normal, whatever you feel ... but I believe cancer try’s to take these days away .. it has no mercy it wants us to fall down and stay in down .. but I think every good memory we make, every smile, every hug, may not beat cancer but we can kick it up the bum ... and he could come through this so fingers crossed .. is he having op, or cemo or nothing like me? 

im the one on that journey too .. I can’t have treatment because of my weak bones etc ... so I’m living each and every day as a bonus ... I’ll be darned to let it take away my sense of humour.. I smile at something every day .. and if it’s a hard day and I haven’t smiled I look in the mirror.... this is only my way of dealing with it ... live for the day ... no what ifs ... no imagining what may come ... my wonderful family have cryed with me, lots of hugs, and admitting it is scary .. but oh my so much to smile about when you have someone there walking right by your side ...

sending you a big hug , brave lady ... Chrisie xx