Hi there ... so sorry your going through such a hard time ... your in the right place as we are all having our journey too so your not alone ... the normal we knew, gets turned on it’s head once you hear the word cancer ... it’s slowly over time adjusting to a different normal, and learning to adjust to the different problems that pop up ... all the time dealing with feelings too ... 

im on my cancer journey and my big sis is going through Alzheimer’s and she’s forgetting more each day ... think she knows who we are, but not names ... my cousin just lost his lung cancer journey a few days ago ... saying that, I’m doing well, we are all caring for my sister , we just say all the things we would av , even if she forgets 10min later ... the kids make her laugh and think it’s o.k as they see us walking her path with her and we go into her world so she will never be confused ... my cousin is now out of pain and back with his mum and dad who passed years ago ...  

so yes looking ahead is really scary ... all I would say is try to live in the day ... hold their hands and walk their paths Together ..you have  today , talk , listen , cry and hug ... and make memories that no matter what, long or short you’ll have memories in your heart that no one can take away ... and know all those feelings your feeling are all part of this journey, and you will go through them ...but there’s lots on here will help you through and be a shoulder when you need one...

sending you a big hug ... Chrisie xx ️