Hi ... just wanted to say welcome to out little chat site ... I know there are some others on here who are on the same journey as yourself ... some are partners too ... so they hopefully will find your post and reply ... I'm 8 weeks post mastectomy and just about to have test / scan on other sites too ... 

so whatever and where ever your feeling , it's a good place to be , on here ... coz there's always someone who really does understand those feelings ... so don't worry bout putting them down .... this cancer takes away so much and is so cruel , every time we can make the most of the time we have long or short then at least 'cancer' isn't gonna take that away ... the memories you make now will last forever...  that's what I'm doing , so sending you a mahoosive hug ... Chrisie Xx