Hi Audra ... welcome to our little home of ours where we can hold each other's hand And somewhere where we can say honestly how we feel and know we all understand those feelings ... 

one of the hardest things we have to do is 'waiting for results / treatments / appointments and I felt so lost when waiting for mine ... but I went on here and realised it's all part of this 'rollercoaster ' we talk about ... all your feelings are completely normal as we get them all at one time or another ... 

holding on to those you love and (if you can) sharing just how you feel could help you through as wer brought up to not worry other people but by talking / crying / hugs too you can support each other ... though I know some find that so hard to do and there is no right or wrong ways to do things so go with your heart and remember it could turn out negative result .. fingers crossed for you .. 

big hug Chrisie x