Hi Keeva, I feel like I'm gatecrashing a private party and a bit of a fraud as I'm not suffering from cancer myself. My husband was diagnosed with accute myeloid leukaemia about 6 weeks ago and it was such a terrible shock. He has been told that he will have to stay in hospital for 5 months undergoing chemotherapy and I just feel so helpless as I'm watching him suffer the side effects of the first round of chemotherapy and he is so terribly ill, we are just waiting for him to turn the corner and for his white blood cells to recover slightly. I'm trying to juggle home, family and work as well as trying to visit the hospital every day and although I'm trying to portray a positive appearance and keep a normal environment at home, I feel like I'm am at breaking point with no one who understands my situation to talk to - and then I realise that I'm being incredibly self centred as I cannot even comprehend how frightened and isolated my husband must be feeling actually suffering from this illness.
So sorry to hear that your husband is going through this as well as yourself and family.
You are not alone believe me. I understand from both sides me myself having gone through breast cancer and seeing my family having to deal with my diagnosis it was heart breaking.
You have a lot to deal with at the moment take each day as it comes. Your husband is in the best place and he is being looked after but as we are all human and not robots we can only do so much. You have to look after yourself too x
