Hi, Mt name is Lesley and I am just about to have the last of 6 treatments of chemo.  I seem to have suffered with lots of the side effects from constipation, watery eyes to numb fingers and toes and everything in between.  Some days I have wanted to run away and hide in fear of what I will get next.  A little history,  I had breast cancer back in 1998 and following a mastectomy had both chemo and radiotherapy.  I took tamoxifen for 5 years and was then told to go and enjoy my life.  Well I got almost 20 years, but in April 2016 I began to get a tickly cough that I just couldn't get rid of. A visit to the gp who insisted at first it was hay fever and then asthma meant that I wasted 6 months before a referral to a respiratory specialist, which took another 2 months before I could get an appointment, following a ct scan cancer cells were found in my lung and unfortunately throughout my bones. I'm a glass half full sort of person, but cannot get my head around what happens next, to see palliative care on my file scares me and I don't know what to do. I haven't spoken to anyone although I keep being asked if I have spoken to McMillan nurses