Hi I'm new here,

I've been diagnosed with a tumor in the nasopharyngeal region (head & neck) and I'm currently awaiting my biopsy appt to find out if it's malignant or not.

The crazy thing is, that whilst I am nervous about having someone shove a scalpal and foreceps up my nose egyptian style I'm not worried at all about the results coming back positive.

I have had daily migraines (often debilitating) for about 3 years with no cause or solution provided to me by any health care professionals. I've had repeated "uh oh you have shadowing on your brain scan, oh wait no you don't" appointments that have put the fear of God in me only to then be told it was a mistake. If anything I think I'm more scared of being told "this is just another thing that you have to live with that isn't serious enough to try to remove or cure"

Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't wish a positive diagnosis on anyone and I don't intend to be flippant about anyone else's situation. 

If the results do come back positive, nasopharyngeal cancer has about a 70% survival rate. I'm 26 and relatively healthy with no dependants and no mortgage to worry about. My parents are still alive and I would be able to depend on them for support without a shadow of a doubt. I'm in a frankly ideal situation to be dealt that kind of news in. 

I am terrified of radiotherapy to my head and the resulting side effects, I'm a chef and the concept of losing my sense of taste (it seems so silly I know) does worry me (let alone losing my hair). But I'm not scared of that particular cancer itself.

Am I crazy?

Had anyone else felt like this? That they would rather be told that their health issues are something that they can fight with a very good chance rather than being told that they're facing a life time issue of chronic pain?

I really hope this post hasn't offended anyone. I probably sound terribly ungrateful for the chance it could be begnin