three words i never wanted to hear

Hi My name is Sue, after a spell of what seemed to be gastric flu over xmas, i found i continued to suffer with stomach pains and diaherra, wwhich then led to bleeding piles,i went to docs and was given creams and supositories and was told to come back if it continued, after 2 further returns to my doctors, i was referred for a CT scan and then a colonoscopy,which i had on the 7th June, after i came around from a relaxed state i was advised the consultnt wants to see me as further blood test would be needed, i was taken into a room followed by a nurse and the consultant, i was asked who was with me and advised i should have them in, my 78 year old mother had come with me, she herself  is not well suffering  from serveral issues ,i said no to bringing her in as knew she would not be able to deal with it, strange how you know bad news is on its way, i was advised i have a large pollop which needs to be removed , i was then advised a biopsy had been done on an area 13 centimetres into my colon, the three words were then said ' you have cancer'.

I was then advised i would here from the hospital re the operation to remove the pollop and what will happen next.

I walked out of the room thanking the nurse and off we went on our way.

once i have all the details i will tell my mother and family but at this moment i don't know what to say, everything is a blur and not real,  but i know its there, the only time its not is those few seconds when you start to wake and then it hits you.

There are so many things going around in my head.

I am so glad to have found this forum to read posts and learn from others who have also heard those three words, but i have four to say back ' i will beat this '.

 i don't feel alone now

Sue

  • When I was told I cried all the way home dreading telling my husband & my 81 year old Mum. I decided in the end only to tell Mum when I knew all the facts and what if any treatment I could have once I had that which was about a month I sat her down and told her everything worse conversation I had but I was positive and still am whatever will be will he but in the meantime I am maintaining my positivity trusting the doctors & giving this cancer a run for its money.

    Stay positive talk about it to friends family take any support offered and occasionally cry but not to much 

    Jan x

  • Hi sue it's horrible I too have just found out I have cancer a different type but like you came out after being told in a blurr emotions are all over place I am only 33 and waiting I feel is the hardest part for scans and news I hope you get it all sorted and a treatment plan and if you need a chat then am here or even a rant I fully get telling family I done it all on one day got it over and done but now family all looking at me like a victim so don't know what's best cause once you tell people you have cancer they all act different take care and we can fight this disease and kick it to the kerb xxxxx

  •  Hi Cjay, Thank you responding, it was so up lifting to hear from you and Jan,  you are both realy positive and strong, since being told i have noticed  i have the best nights sleep ever but when awake its like i am waiting for something to happen but my mind is thinking of nothing , then i get a quick punch of pure fear.

    I told my best friend yesterday and yes things did seem different after, once i have the full details i will tell my mum and family as questions now will fall on vacant space in my head

    I am so thankful of finding this forum for the advise and strength and to know i am not alone, and we will beat it together

     

     will catch up very soon take care

     

    Sue xxx 

  • I myself was diagnosed with breast cancer in feb 2017.  Thank GOD my husband was with me when I got the results.  I cried all the way home, thinking why me.  I kept thinking am I going to die.  I thought about my three children.  Will I be there to see them grow. 

    It's been 4 months since my diagnose and PRAISE GOD I had a double masectomy and reconstruction in April and my surgical pathology report came back as CANCER FREE.  But my oncologist suggested 12 treatments of chemo to lessen the recurrence of cancer by 15%.  

    So I am currently doing chemo treatments.  What has helped me has been my faith and thinking positive.  I have put my health in the LORD hands and know he is in control and will help me get through this if it's his will.

    Take care

     

    Mary

     

  • Cancer is another process that we have to learn to live with, my friend rang yesterday as her 77 yr old Father has just been diagnosed with lung cancer and she was distraught. But we had a chat I obviously couldn't comment on her fathers treatment specifically but talking about it helped her and also me.

    when you are able to talk emotions will flow tears will fall but you will find your inner Wonder Woman

    x

     

  • hi I have just been diagnosed with breast cancer going for surgery lumpectomy and lymph node investigation on friday 16 I am really feeling in pain within my breast at the monent it is like heavy pressure and sharp pain did anyone else experience this? strength and regard for all. xx