OurLass, the loss of my hubby after cancer

Hi, i lost my beloved hubby to Lung cancer in October 2016, 10 months after diagnoses he was only 47. we had been together 32 years, m arried 27 years, I miss him more and more each day. To loose the person you expected to be with all your life is total devasting and some days you just want to shut the door go to bed and n ever get up! but thats not what they would want you to do. the feeling of not being safe as youve got your hubby/partner there for you is really hard, ive gone back to work but coming home and him not being there with a cuppa ready for me listening to me whinging about my day has also hit me hard, as he is never going to be there again.  I have 3 wonderful, beautiful children to him, i am blessed to have them as they are what  keep me going, my eldest, daughter, is going to be married in December this year, i am so proud and excited yet the same time devasted that her beloved dad wont be there.  

I try to keep strong, and in time would like to give my time and experience, in helping MacMillian to give people the support they gave my hubby and myself, Take Care x 

  • Hi OurLass. I feel the same.My husband died last month. We were married for 32 and have two wonderful daughters, a three year old granddaughter and a grandson due in September. I feel isolated and alone even when I'm surrounded by my family. My husband was my rock and my life feels pointless and empty without him. My feelings about the birth of my grandson are similar to yours about your daughters wedding, bittersweet probably describes it best. It's good that you have managed to get back to work and hopefully having this routine will help you but I know how you feel about coming home to an empty house, it's awful, the silence feels so final. I haven't been on this forum for long but I think it's helping and I hope that in time I can help others. Take care of yourself and I'm here if you want to talk. Sue x

    P.S. Do you live in the North East??