Welcome to Cancer Chat SJ3192 although I'm really sorry to read the circumstances under which you find yourself posting.

I know you are feeling alone and low but I want you to know that you are not alone and we are here for you. Our community are very supportive and some of them have been in a similar position to yourself but through the friendship, help and kindness on this forum they have found a way through even the darkest of times and I hope you can too. 

Have you been in touch with anyone since taking the painkillers? If not please do so as soon as possible. We strongly recommend you go to your nearest a&e to explain what happened and they will take care of you. If this isn't an option please contact your GP for an emergency appointment or contact the out of hours team. Again let them know what happened and they will come to you and do all they can to help. 

And remember that when you are feeling like this that the Samaritans are just a phone call away. They can really help at times like this so please do talk to them if you continue to feel this way. Their number is 116 123 and someone is always available to talk to 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

If you feel like you can't look after yourself right now do get in touch with your family and friends and let them know how you are feeling. I know you mentioned they haven't been in touch but I'm sure they would be very upset to know you are feeling this way and will do all they can to help you through this.

Keep posting SJ3192 and update us on how you are feeling as there will always be someone here who will understand, listen and support you at this time.

Kind Regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

I hav't seen anybody since i took the painkillers. It was last night anyway and i was sick thrrough the night.

I don't have any family and my friends have just left me to deal with this alone so no point in even contacting them, they wouldn't care

Hi, I can sympathise with you as I feel like that too.  But this is your life and you deserve to be here as much as anyone. You deserve to be on the mend and have you days.  Friends like that are not worth it, you dont need them, all you need is you.  You have to care for yourself.  Please dont feel low esteem as you have already felt like that with those so called friends of yours. your worth more than  that.  You will never be alone, I have skin cancer too and I also feel low at times, want to cry or run away, but then I think of the good things in my life like my son and grandchild and think no, this isnt getting the better of me, nor is anyone else.  I know where your at, but please smile for me and tell us all on here your okay.  Please take care, hope to her you on hear soion xxx