I lost my husband 12 Feb 2015, bowel cancer. Diagnosis to death 13 hours!!!!!. We had been together 6 years, married 4. Second chance for both of us. Since he died I have had two surgeries and moved home. I have just agreed to have bereavement counselling on 1-1 basis. I miss him so much and feel guilty because I'm still here and trying to build a new life, but the missing link can not be mended. All I can say is take every day as it comes, you will have good days and bad and it will hit you like a tidal wave. The big word is acceptance...not easy, but this is your journey. There is no right or wrong way to deal with it, you do it YOUR way and to hell with what anyone says you should/shouldn't be doing.