Yes! I threw the "C" word in a conversation...

then I had to explain... well.. I think "cancer" is more of an offensive  offensive than C***....  

it threw the cat amongst the pigeons in the conversation...  and ended up in laughter and agreement... 

as I have been here with this god forsaken *** of a disease four times.. I feel that I'm well within my boundary to say that...  

and suffer with horrendous survivors guilt., yes . It is a "thing"  why am I here? What did I do to make it? Do I deserve to be here? Why did he die? He was my friend.  He didn't deserve that.. and why did she die? She was my friend too... 

"SURVIVORS GUILT"  

nice to meet you all.. im doll x