Bloody cancer

I had a lumpectomy in March and am fully recovered from that. Had my first chemo last Thursday and tried the cold cap. I was feeling very disappointed with myself as I only lasted two hours with it. I thought it was horrible and got more and more distressed and got my nurse to take it off just before my chemo was finished. I went to a Look Good, Feel Better session on Monday, which was wonderful, and after speaking to the other ladies having chemo I don't feel such a failure. PICC line flush tomorrow and wig fitting Friday. Happy days!

  • LOL sorry for giggling. I am a cold person. I feel the cold. people love me in the summer as they love to put their hands on me to cool down. When I was diagnosed with The C and my C'mo was due. I was freaking out a bit about the hair loss but looking forward to the hot flushes... well 2 weeks in my hair fell out.. shaved the rest so I could wear a hat or just  gp, as called 'Top end comando'  The FEAR was the suggestion of a Cold cap..Brrrr that thought put more fear into me than anything!!! incuding the Cancer.. I had the wig fit and didn't gte on with that either really.. stuck with the  Turbans and scarfs and various hats or T Camando. I ftted in fine... thought I did were make-up. experimented with make-up more than I had ever done in my life !!! I had fun .. and still do have fun , drawing my eyebrows on. I can look surprised all day if i want to ! or I can look like I'm frowning all day.. or go to the loo and change my expression that will stick.. I have fun with it.. but mostly I just draw normal looking brows and looks like I;m just fashionable .. My hair has grown back .. really fast.. eyebrows .. well still drawing on but still having fun with them.. I guess I don't have the face for the wig... I so wish I had.. but all is well. Take care. it all comes out in the wash ! So to Speak.. I have my wig still for very special occasions.. they are so real these days, I was amazed. My friend who I see seldom had one on.. I never noticed, wondered why she kept smiling, strangely.. then she told me. I couldn't believe it. I was so jealous.. she has a good face though !  What I want to say, I guess,  is that it is all about how you feel. it is hard but just think of the thousands of people going through what we are and have been through, do whatever it takes to feel good, cos we are worth it ! The thing that gets me most is... I never had ONE HOT FLUSH !!! SO if you get hot flushes.. give me a shout and I'll come and steal ya heat.. I still have 4 hot water bottles and my electric blanket on !!! What a whimp I am .. Most of all .keep smiling. Kind Regards Joan x

     

  • Hi Joan, Thank you for your cheerful reply. Like you, I am a cold body and never minded the hot flushes during menopause! I'm not too bothered about losing my hair, it will grow back, I know. I am getting a wig for when I need it - my niece is getting married in the Summer in Cornwall and I really don't feel up to facing extended family and friends without one. I wasn't blessed with a face that suits hats and have never had eyebrows to speak of. I don't draw them on as I wear glasses that frame my face. I have bought some scarfy things and I have my gardening hat and just hope I don't frighten my grandchildren! I am going to ask my son to explain that Grandma will have no hair for a while. I am just starting on the chemo treatment and so still very unsure of how I am going to feel/cope with all it entails. My default mode has always been cheerful and just hope that prevails. With kind regards and take care, Linda x