i have had 5 fmily members pass away with cancer,and also 5 close friends,the youngest being only 29,and the first one to pass away was my dad.he had lung cancer,which cleared,but it was his secondary cancer,which was a bad bang on his back we were very close,then there was my mums sister,she had a very rare cancer which was in operable,.,the worse one to deal with was my mums ,she had 3 cancers from the age of 58 she had an inverted nipple,the second was a large lump in the other breast,she had both removed,she had the ALL CLEAR ON BOTH,then one morning she woke up with a pain on the right side of the ribs,she had lots of tests done but they could,nt find anything,she finally had a catscan and it showed up on there,mum had a funny feeling that it was cancer againshe NEVER asked why her and my dad was the same,before she passed away she had a power drive,where the body gets extra energy,so i was dealing with my mums cancers for over 22 years,i was trying to hold down my 3 full time jobs,and the year she passed away i started to become ill,ihad 2 viruses then i had adult acne all over my left leg,then everything started to go down hill rom thr wednesday night on the saturday i was up and down the stairs like ayoyo,ihad been upsince 6am,i had to keep takig her nightie off and changing it 3 times and the bedding as well,even before she pass away she wanted a small cup of tea,the nurses came round and took over from me,i left my door open and my mums and it was about 4.50am and i went into the bedroom and i caught her last breathes,but her death has really hit me hard worse than i thought it was going toi have axiety /depression,the shakes in my neck and head,both arms and legs numb fingers plus other physical problems it will be 5 years on july 29th i can,t for get it because it was the day of the games in london,and i am still struggling with it now,and on top of all that i have got FIBROMYALGIA all over my body

                                                           judith