Newly diagnosed.

Hi my name is Madi, I'm 30 and I was diagnosed with primary breast cancer on Thursday. 

I've been told I'll be starting chemo soon (in the few weeks, after my fertility appointments) and later have surgery to remove "stanley" (that's righr I've named my tumour) and breast reconstruction/reduction, followed by radiotherapy.

I feel numb right now like I'm in a bubble, and as selfish as it sounds angery when people cry when I deliver the news. 

Not sure if this is the right thing to be posting on the forum, if not please tell me. 

I'm scared, angery, upset, and so many more emotions I didn't even know exsisted.

But I'm postive, and I'm about to let cancer/stanley define me, beat me or control me. I will fight this and I will win. I'm gonna kick cancers ***.

Thanks for reading.

  • Hey Madi

    welcome. The rollercoaster of emotions is very normal! I seem to spend most of my time worrying how the people close to me are feeling as like you, I'm ultra positive about getting through my treatment and will maintain this until it's all done. 

    Eqch day at a time, with no negative expectations is my approach. There are lots of people on here going through exactly the same as we are, it's a journey well trodden unfortunately. My "Stanley" is different to yours, but I'm sure some of the people going through the same procedure can give you plenty of advice and information as and when you need it. 

    Take care, stay positive and don't be scared to use this sounding board for absolutely anything:-)

  • Hi Madi welcome to the forum. This is the right place as the journey is something we're all familiar with in one way or another. I was diagnosed with primary breast cancer in January and only now feel a little in reality. I felt like i was in a bubble with rollercoaster of emotions. You have positivity & strength which is a good way forward. My strength left me many times & came back. I am in the middle of my radiation so hoping my 'Stanley' is gone & stays away! I wish you all the best & go with the flow. Every person reacts differently to the journey. Keep us posted.