there is no entry requirement to be able to come on to this site and talk about your experience with cancer
anyone and everyone can chat on here, cancer or no cancer
there is also no league of importance regarding what exposure you have to cancer or how you deal with it
We are all different, we all deal with this terrible disease in different ways and those who have been through the same treatment for the same cancer as myself, they have all gone through it in there own different want .... some breeze through it and don't know what the rest of us are talking about, some have the most terrible time with treatment medication and recovery
the thing is we don't judge on this site, who are we to judge?
i do understand the feeling of feeling fake as I got off lightly and when I speak to people who are terminal or are no longer able to talk on this site, or even people that are having it worse time of it than myself ..... there is a feeling of I am in the same boat, but I'm not really and feel more like a stow away and should really jump ship .... not the best analogy but it's all I can come up with at the moment
its a difficult lingering feeling that eats away sometime, but I try not to let it get the better of me
i tend to treat my cancer circumstance as life giving me a little shove .... ok a bit of a forceful shove .... but a bit of a wake up call ... to do better in myself and be happy about who I am am what I do ...... after all all the money in the world will not make you happy, but being happy about yourself make your life richer in all aspects
god listen to me I have turned into some religious evangelical preacher
i am not saying I have all the answers I am just trying to say how cancer has made me value more what I have, I am happy with it and intend to keep making sure that it stays that way
ok I have also bee a positive person, which can sometimes be annoying to others, but I have always looked at a problem and thought "will this worry me in ten years time? ..... if not, what I am worrying about now is painful, but temporary, I just need to get through the now and not over worry about it, as in time it will go"
Easier said than done I know
ive preached the good word of vatch too much, as I said I don't have all the answers and my wife constantly reminds me of that, but I hope there is something in my ramble that makes some sense.
so no need to feel second rate ashamed or not on the same level when you talk to me, you are just as important as everyone else on here
