Hi Emma

My dad has mesothelioma ( lung cancer) and was told today that he won't have any further treatment. We don't know how long he has left ? 2 months....or longer! It's tough and I feel heartbroken. He is still alive but wondering how I'll cope when he is gone. My father in law died 3 years ago. That was hard too! My husband never really talks too much about it, but I know sometimes it hits him.  My dad is only mid 60s, not sure how old your dad was, but it does feel totally unfair. I've read up on grief and know there are cycles. I know one is anger.....I'm not sure you can ever truly get over a bereavement, but think like a wound eventually with time it heals. I don't think people really understand either, unless they have been through what you have. Sending you lots of virtual hugs, I know how rubbish life is at times. I feel sick today after hearing news. I was a nurse for years too and it doesn't make or any easier what so ever! Xxx

Thank you for your reply. I'm so sorry you had that dreadful news today, I will never forget the day we received that news and the fear in my dad's face when he had to tell me :( sending you heartfelt love xx

my dad was 63 we were told he had six months to live. Our world fell apart. In fact we only had two months left with him. If I could offer you any advice it would be to spend every minute you can with your Dad I wish now that I would have taken time away from work and been with him so much more, but I thought we had a while left so put things off. Now living with guilt wishing I was with him all day every day is killing me :( 

you're so right I don't think a lot of people do understand as I now know, I thought I was there for friends who have lost parents but only now do I know how hard it actually is :( I can't accept that I will never see him again and my children are missing out on such an amazing grandad x

Thank you Mel 

its so hard knowing you have to say good bye :( I can't help but think it would have been kinder for him to go without knowing he was going after watching him so upset because he didn't want to leave us. I think that sad look on his face will haunt me forever. Everyone says times a healer and I know you are all right it's just hard to accept at the moment life is so different without him. I'm so sorry that you lost your own dad to this cruel disease it's so unfair isn't it. I hope your fiancé responds well to the treatment I feel for you because it's so hard living in hope and not knowing, waiting for results. We had 4 years of my dad having treatment,scan etc...I used to dread result days :( it really is torture. 

Sending you and your fiancé lots of love and well wishes xxx