Hi,

my name is Dawn I recently lost my dad 8 weeks ago to lung cancer.  I'm not sure anything I say can make you feel any better or stop that intense horrible panick you are feeling the dread of what you knows going to happen and have not control over. All I can say is I'm so sorry and I know how you feel, the grief you are feeling is what I felt every single minute of the day for 11 months while dad battled cancer it's horrible.

life doesn't get any easier after dad has passed accept for the fact they are not suffering anymore I don't think it ever will I think you just learn to live without them I suppose you just get use to the fact that any screaming, crying, panicking isn't going to bring them back.  Tell your mum how much you love her laugh about old memories and try to stay as calm as possible.  I have sent you a request so if you just wan someone to talk to to vent feel free to message me 

xx