Hi everyone,

my names Charlotte, my dad has had cancer for the past 3 years, it started with a tumour in his oesophagus which resulted in a major operation to remove the tumour and his oesophagus and several "suspect" lymph nodes. Op went well and it was removed, recovery was slow and my dad started to loose a lot of weight (my dad started out at 23stone!) and he went down to 9 stone shocking to see and it was then, the doctors said that it wasn't looking good and that the cancer was in the diaphragm and the top part of the stomach , he started chemo and he actually improved and the cancer shrunk which was great, life felt normal again for a while.

Recently dad was told that he had lymph node that had grown and it is stage 3 and they had decided to give him an intense course of chemo which is given via a pump over two days,every two weeks,the first lot has made him sick as dog, but he's still plodding on and getting on with it, "it ain't over till the fat lady sings" as he says.

we could have lost him over a year ago but we didn't, but my question is while I'm ok and my dad is ok (you know, emotions wise) it feels like everyone around us is losing the plot a little and while I get emotional outbursts are ok and good for you ...... why is that it's happening to everyone else and not me??, I feel like I'm supposed to be an emotional wreck and I'm just not..... I'm comforting my husband more often that not. Has anyone else experienced this?.