Hello

I found out on Friday that my 83 year old Mum has terminal cancer.  She has been given 3 months.  I'm an only child and she bought me up on her own.  That obviously made us very close.  She had breast cancer twice and fought it off, but now has cancer in her stomach lining and they can't find the primary site.  To complicate matters at the same time they diagnosed her with advanced Alzheimer's so she can't be told she is dying because she doesn't understand.  We'd been going to the doctor's for months saying something was wrong as she couldn't swallow, but none of the tests had shown anything up.  It was not until she had an infection that made her confused that I finally got her into hospital so this is rather a shock.  My problem is that I can't stop crying since I found out on Friday.  I want to visit her and be with her as much as possible but I daren't sit there and cry.  I also have a temporary job in London, (she's in Plymouth where I live with my partner) and I am having trouble facing that I might be away when she goes.  My partner and I are child free and I've just started menopause so this is adding another layer of sadness to the situation for me right now.