Hi,

I certainly don't think you're being a drama queen. I was only diagnosed on Dec 30th, and it feels like months and months ago! NONE of this is easy. I had a lumpectomy, so I'm not the person you're hoping to get a response from, but I hope I can offer some support anyway. 

Losing a breast is a big deal. People try to make you feel good by saying things that effectively suggest a breast is a disposable or spare part, but it's part of you and your identity and just think about how much time is spent by women fussing over them - too big, too small, bras that push them up, hold them down, pad them out, etc. You've been through quite an ordeal and I think it takes time. 

People in my life have some kind of expectation that I should inspire them with my positivity and strength, but the reality is that this is all a whirlwind and so unreal and I'm waiting to crash (again). I have felt quite isolated in all this as I find it hard to live up to others' expectations.

I hope you will come to love your breast and find a way to see it as part of something that saved your life - a symbol of strength! Until that day, I think you just need to allow yourself go through the emotions - it must be a part of the process of getting well again. It's what I tell myself.

L xx