hi this is my first post two years ago my best friend was diagnosed with bowel cancer which has spread to her lungs, I  was heartbroken and that she is palliative she is an inspiration,then on the 3rd of January this year another deverstating blow my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer it's like a bad dream I can't wake from and I just can't stand watching them in pain it is breaking my heart I wish I could do something and instead I feel hopeless.