i know this is a stupid thing to say but please try not to worry..i have posted just now that i was diagnosed by a routine check with breast cancer on the 14th november and had my op on the 1st december..they also removed several lymph glands to check to see if theywere cancerous..my sister was diagnosed last week with exactly the same just an higher grading than mine..my doctor told me i will not die of cancer..but have to undergo radiation etc..i have not accepted that i have cancer and still dont accept it..and i feel fine..i do my daily chores as usual but i am enjoying being on sick from my cleaning job which i still do :)..i live in germany and know how you feel being in a foreign country.. its the shock when you hear the word CANCER ..nasty word which no one likes ..i associate it with death ..but the medicine is so advanced these days that i think if they have caught it early you will have no problem..dont accept it ..just have the op and everything else they think is necessary ..you are strong..you are young and you are not going to die..and you wont have any pain..dont let your fears get the better of you :) just keep writing talking ..i talked all the time..it helps and to be quite honest i enjoyed my stay in hospital ...rest and talking to women with the same prob :) ♥

Thank you for replying and I am sorry to hear your family has more than its fair share to deal with. I'm not scared of the treatment but because the lump is under my arm I'm scared its in the lymph nodes and spreading. I want to be given a chance and am so frightened I won't get one. I'm a person who bottles everything up and I just don't know how to tell people because it will make them so unhappy, especially at this time of year. Thank you though for your positivity, I'm going to try and emulate it!

unbelievable, but yesterday my niece who has supported me with fone calls and mails told me that her husband has also been diagnosed with throat cancer all within a month more or less..they are terrified because both his parents had cancer ..so genetic thing ..i am not writing to frighten you but just to let you know that there are people much worse off than us..i am sure you will be ok..enjoy your christmas and let the new year take care of all the other stuff..my sister has her date for op on the 6th and i have mine for ct on the 5th..so we have just blanked our heads till that date :)