Hi there Little Miss, welcome to the forum, but sorry to hear that your Mom is dealing with cancer. I know how hard this is for you to hear as you are not ready to let your Mom go. It is too soon and she is likely too young to die, and unfortunately, this may turn out to be a challenge you will have to meet. I agree that it isn't looking too good for your Mom, but then these things can be hard to predict. I think your reluctance to ask questions comes from your fear that you may not like the answers which is probably true of a lot of us at times. Living from day to day is not a bad thing; sometimes we can only manage small parts of this journey at a time, whether its' our own illness, or that of a loved one. We deal with what we can, when we can, and when we really have to, especially when it comes to something like this, so don't beat yourself up over this. As for coping, some days you will feel that you are, and other days you won't cope at all. That's the roller coaster part of this journey. I have lost many people in my life to cancer; my Dad at a young age, my brother, a former partner, and too many friends, and now I'm dealing with my own cancer illness. We never get used to it. As for people not understanding; most people don't, unless they've been through it with a loved one themselves, and even if they have, that doesn't mean they've developed the insight on how to be a support to others.

You have come to the right place here on this forum. People on here are caring and supportive and we know how it feels to deal with this terrible disease. You will get virtual support on here and I know its' not as good as personal, but it sure helps to know there are people out here who do know what its' like. Come back on here and let us know how your Mom is doing and also to get support for yourself as you take this journey with your Mom.

Sending you a virtual hug.

Lorraine 

Hi Lorraine 

Thank you for your reply and I'm so sorry you're dealing with this terrible illness yourself. Like you said some days you're mentally prepared and others are pretty trying. I guess day by day is the only way to get through and I'd do anything and everything to help my mum so like many others I will find a way to get through it. Virtually is definitely better than being lonely. Thank you again for taking the time to read my post. It'll be nice to make some virtual friends xx

Many heartfelt prayers are going out to you Little Miss and your dear mom. I understand the roller coaster.  I'm a 19 year breast cancer, stage three, and am so lucky but had to have a biopsy last Monday at the Ob Gyn. Waiting on results. I can so, so relate to your experience due to the fact I've lost several family members to cancer. May I suggest a support group at this time Little Miss. You'll meet people going thorugh the same thing and will get you out. It does help; gives you a sounding board that may be good for you. We all need and want to love and support each other in this life for sure. Remember to take care of your health as well while dealing with your mom's cancer. When going through chemo I found that nice fruit juices or smoothies tasted good, a votive candle burinng gave me a sense of  'calm' along with nice relaxing music. (Amazon Andrew Weil; Sound Body Sound Mind)

Please keep us posted Little Miss and remember to reach out for help, for meals, for visits from those who love you. This is a difficult time so be just as loving to you as you're being to your dear mom. Prayers,

Scar1888

Best Wishes for today, Nicky.  Xxx