Hello Carollyn & welcome to this forum. 

I really feel for u & what you are going thru. Although I have been very active since I joined I find it hard to lnow the right thing to say to people fighting this horrendous disease. 

Since joining I haven't felt so alone. Hope one of the wise members respond to you soon. 

Take care

Carol x

hi carollyn,   do not let it get the better of you, you fight with all you have girl, and keep fighting, and next year you can do all those holidays and things,  i want you to put some music on and look in the mirror and say,     you are not going to beat me,     and if you dont, i will come and kick its butt for you...you go for it, stay positive,  you can survive...sending loads of warmth and love and strength to you...cococat/rach