My wonderful mum and best friend was diagnosed with metasasized cancer (source still unknown) just one month ago.
She was initially going to the doctors for what she thought was a problem with her bladder, she wasn't feeling too well then but that was nothing out of the ordinary for her as she hasn't been in the best of health for years for various reasons and we weren't overly worried. However tests showed a mass on her ovary and one in her lung.
Since the initial diagnosis her condition has deteriorated massively. She's had multiple litres of fluid removed from her lung and abdomen and is in dire agony all the time. She's had scans and biopsies and tomorrow she will be told her prognosis. I believe they will tell her that there is nothing they can do to treat the cancer.
Everything has happened and is happening so, so quickly that I don't feel we've had any time to digest the initial diagnosis let alone have to deal with this prognosis. I'm trying to be strong for her but it's not only heartbreaking to see her in so much pain and not be able to do anything but also from a selfish point of view it's heartbreaking because I know I'll soon be without her and even though I'm 32 I still feel far too young to lose my mother - and I feel she's far to young to lose her life. I really don't know how I'm going to cope without her, I feel ever so alone and hopeless. I'm an only child and she is the last immediate family I have.
It would be particularly great to connect with others who have lost or are also close to losing their mother.