Hi there Bazcit, I can relate to the issues you are having. I am older than you and I had a colon re-section six and a half years ago and then they discovered that the cancer had spread to my lung. I have had 2 lung re-sections since then and also bladder cancer and a tumor removed from my ureter tube. My body looks like a jig saw puzzle from all the incisions. I'm not having fun, but I am still alive and kicking, but I don't know for how much longer. I'm not feeling too bad right now and trying to enjoy some of what life has to offer on most days.As far as being frightened, I think we all have a yellow streak down our backs when we dwell on the fact that we will likely die some day from this cancer. My choice would be an instant death from a stroke or a heart attack, but we don't get to choose. If you can, try to occupy your time with activities that take your mind off of the worry. I know that's a tall order, but with some effort, it does help. You have a lot of company here on this site and I hope you find some support here with other forum members. People on here are very caring and supportive.

Take care and sending hugs.

Lorraine