A rollercoaster that only goes down

Hello

I am new to the forum.  My fit and healthy husband started feeling unwell 7 weeks ago and has now been diagnosed with bowel cancer that had spread to his liver and peritoneum.  He is unable to eat or drink much and has fluid on the lungs.  He now barely gets up for the sofa.  I am really struggling with feeling incredibly sad and worried for him but on occasions very frustrated.  What has prompted this post is that after 4 weeks of only seeing family and hospitals I had arranged to see a friend for a coffee for an hour tomorrow and I now think he is going to make that difficult .  Feel completed conflicted about this.  Absolutely don't know what to do for the best for him.

sorry this is a rather howl like introduction but struggling to talk about this - there are some things it isn't fair to share with the person you love when they are so sick

  • Hello SaraMargaret, This is going to sound really harsh - but.....whilst i totally understand how you feel about trying to reconnect with the outside world to protect your "sanity" - maybe consider, if you are unlikely enough to lose him you will have all the time in the world to go have coffee with friends. It is totally reasonable that you feel conflicted about this, but he probably doesn't have as many long term choices as you do , hang in there girl. when we sign up for better or worse , sickness and in health this is what it means. No one said it would be easy, but being there for you mate when they really need you is what it's all about. best regards sueps

     

  • Hi Sarah

    You need to make some time for yourself, or you too will become ill. An hour or two away to have coffee with a friend will do you so much good. You need to do something like this everyday, you will be better placed to look after him if you do and you will have something fresh to talk about. Kim