My day was diagnosed on the 27th of February with a Neuroendocrine tumor which started from his Pancreas. He had a bad cough for 5 weeks and lost his voice completely but apart from that nothing else was wrong and he felt fine. As the cough would not go away the doctor requested a blood test which showed his liver enzymes were very high and he was immediately sent for tests which resulted in the above stated diagnosis.
We were all in shock and as I was 4 months pregnant I had to try and be as calm as possible but as you may understand that was impossible.........My dad left the hospital as they said he would not bee starting chemo for a few days so I had the luck of spending those precious days at home with him but I could see he was getting weaker by the day and started to look very very sick and lost alot of weight. On the 7th of March my mum called the ambulance as he stopped eating completely and was so weak and unfortunately on the 12th of March at 8pm we lost him.
I cannot get over how quickly everything happened and my husband keeps reminding me that he didn't suffer and that he was lucky he didn't start chemo because the cancer was absolutely everywhere and he would have only suffered. He also keeps reminding me that I was very lucky to spend those days at home with him and just be with him. Even though he had such a rare cancer, his entire ordeal was 3 weeks so for my dad that was the best way to go....no pain and with his wife and kids who all adored him!!! I am lost without him as he was my biggest weakness and I can't live without him :( Thank God I have an amazing husband who was by my side and my mums side the entire time, an amzing sister and brother inlaw who I am very close to and my hero of a mum who looked after my dad and held his hand through the most difficult time of his life.
In 6 weeks I am bringing my son into this world and I want him to know everything about my dad as he was the most amazing man on earth and gave me an amazing life. I just need to know hes in a better place xxxxx
